Not with a Bang
Instead of coziness and festivity, my holiday season brought cold, hard challenges. A sudden death, (a tribute to my precious mother can be viewed at the following link: http://laconnerweeklynews.com/main.asp?SectionID=7&SubSectionID=33&ArticleID=1559&TM=41702.54), unforeseen travel and expenses, illnesses in the family leading to hospital stays, a long term writing/work project I’d invested in unexpectedly terminated… Long story short, in the span of a month it felt like undergoing a series of swift firm stomach punches. Stress finally knocked me off my feet with vertigo, and I was reeling adrift, like a storm-tossed vessel desperately in need of recovery.
Strangely enough, vertigo, although an awful sensation, was a blessing. It forced me to keep still, and through it I heard God’s voice through the currents of commotion. He addressed a particular scripture. “He who was seated on the throne said, ‘I am making everything new!’ Then he said, ‘Write this down, for these words are trustworthy and true.’" (Revelation 21:5).
Realization smacked me that I’m in a time of transformation. So, too, those nearest me with altering decisions yet to be made. The words of Vladimir Nabokov have come to mind. “Transformation… Transformation is a marvelous thing. I am thinking especially of the transformation of butterflies. Though wonderful to watch, transformation…is not a particularly pleasant process for the subject involved.”
For me, the New Year came in not with a jubilant bang but a hushed dawning. The following writer expressed a sentiment better than could I:
So, as 2018 wraps around you, may you embrace each day. Find something to be grateful for each morning as you rise to face the trials life brings. Troubles are a part of our existence. They will always come and go. But with intention, sometimes just by donning in a moment a humble spirit of thanksgiving, we can endure and expand hope to greater proportions.
1/7/2018 09:42:48 am
Sorry for your loss, Sis and for your unforeseen upheavals Yet you are still here as vibrant a soul as ever which, to me, means so much more joy to come . :-)
1/8/2018 10:46:33 am
Thank you, my dear brother in Christ. Your thoughtful words are encouraging and oh-so deeply appreciated! :)
12/6/2018 12:43:20 pm
I am sorry to hear this, and I feel sorry for everything that happened during holiday season. Just like you, I experienced losing someone I love before a new year started for me. I lost my eldest sister in diabetes and it was a hard phase for me I never thought that could happen to me. It was painful and I endured all days without her presence. But I don't have the choice but to move on. I am sure you will overcome this one day, once you are prepared!
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